Tides of Change

Hopewell Rocks

Hello Lovelies:

2015 has been the year of change. The challenges of 2014 tested me in ways I never imagined and ultimately left me shattered. But in examining the pieces and lovingly patching myself up again I have learned that I love my vulnerability. I often tell myself that I am a warrior – I can storm any battlefield that life brings my way and I know that I will emerge victorious; albeit a bit scarred at times, but victorious none the less. And I have focused on that victory; that feeling of growth and satisfaction throughout all of life’s hardships. This idea brought me comfort. But with the year of medical scares and terrifying encounters I came out more wounded than glorious. For the first time in a long while I felt overwhelmed with doubt regarding my future, my capabilities, my health and my values.

Revisiting Graves Disease at the end of 2014 was incredibly difficult, as I’ve discussed in the past. Accepting that flare ups may be an inevitable part of my journey has not been easy. Especially considering my usual victory focused mindset. For me wining meant defeating this disease and returning to the carefree life that I had before. Accepting that that was ultimately unachievable has been admittedly difficult.

And so I rang in 2015 with a commitment to myself, a devotion to self-love and acceptance. Change has been paramount to this commitment; an arduous undertaking if I’m being honest. I have always clung to the familiar and appreciated stability in my life. But I am learning that just because something is familiar doesn’t mean that it is the right path for our journey. I am so pleased with the progress that I’ve made so far and grateful for the incredible people that this new ideal has brought into my life. Most importantly, I am incredibly happy with the changes I’ve experienced in my own way of thinking. And I achieved remission again fairly quickly thanks to my incredible doctors and the changes I fostered.

I am no longer fixated on the idea of being disease free. I am in remission and of course being healthy is still my main goal (I am Ms. Health Esteem, after all!). My mission is simply to feel good, to be happy and to maintain a loving and health supporting relationship with my incredible body. I have a disease and I always will, but I will thrive with it regardless. And if/when I face a flare up I am ready to make all necessary changes and let go of whatever is no longer serving me. If Graves disease and I must walk together through this life, then I will let it guide me in the right directions. The challenges I have faced so far have brought me to places I couldn’t have imagined and helped me to surround myself with people that I never would have met otherwise.

2015 has taught me that change is necessary, for our health, for our sanity, for our lives. Whatever your challenge, whatever your unique story may be, know that it can have a beautiful silver lining. Embrace your vulnerability, examine the pieces of your hardship and accept the change necessary for your own well-being. This will take practice and time, but you are worth it. You are incredible and worthy of happiness and love. It isn’t easy to look at something difficult from a positive angle, but the hardship is well worth the reward. And although the journey will continue to have its difficult moments, joy is a fundamental factor in maintaining your health. And damn is it ever a beautiful thing to surround yourself with.

All my love,

Sara

Thought of the day: I embrace the change necessary to reveal my true path.

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About Ms. Health-Esteem

Sara Flanagan is a health and lifestyle blogger and the creator of www.mshealthesteem.com, where she shares her story of being diagnosed with Graves Disease, a chronic autoimmune disease, and empowering herself to do everything she can to thrive in spite of her diagnosis. She writes articles on self-love, acceptance, wellness and nutrition. Join her tribe today and share in the journey.

Posted on May 10, 2015, in Life and tagged , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Atta girl, Sara! You go this. 🙂

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